Wednesday, October 2, 2013

I don't mind...

I don't mind telling friends and coworkers, who need to know, that my husband is deployed. I just wish they knew the WHOLE story and that part, I know, is more exclusive.

What I wish everyone knew is we aren't the type of married couple who ENJOYS this break or worse yet NEEDS this break. Yes, absence makes the heart grow fonder, but my heart has been fond for your dad from day one.

When Bill and I started hanging out at friends - I knew there was something different. As a male friend of mine, I had never felt so confident, so witty, so sure of myself. I had not felt that around a guy EVER. And when we eventually started dating, he made me want to be a better person: Smarter, calmer, more worldly, confident ALL the time, and more.

And this Georgia, is "when I knew that I knew he was the one." If you have to ask or wonder how you know..then you don't know, my sweet peach. The feeling is electrifying. If needed, you'll defend it to your friends, your family (yes, me included perhaps) and you'll do so with such confidence and maturity that it will blow us all away...including you. You'll feel like you've never been so sure about anything in your life (keep in mind I was 27 dear one).

I ended up talking a lot about your dad this week. It just so happened whether it was a request to travel for work or just in casual conversation I must have said something that eluded to the fact he was not at home. I mention his name a lot in conversation - to you, friends, coworkers, family.

And I don't mind talking about your dad. Ever.

He's good at what he does. Good at being my husband. Good at being your dad. And good at what he does for his career and our country.

I don't mind - at all - spending this one year with you...just you and me. And consequently without your dad. Because it's to better our future. It's for your college, it's for our potentially growing family, it's for our future. YOUR future.

I don't mind in the big picture sense. I just miss him like crazy.